Tuesday, February 24, 2009

I haven't posted in a long time...

So life has been really interesting since the last time I posted. I've been meaning to post, but whatever. I didn't.
Wow, I actually started this post awhile ago, but I will finish it now.
Those who have read my blog in the past (all of the past posts were deleted due to a security breach of sorts) know of the struggles that I have had and in some ways still face. But my life has come around. I have become happier and more self sufficient through the last couple of months. As most of you know, Romulus was suspended and he had to move out of the apartment. It was the first time since the mission (and before it for a matter of fact) that we would be living apart. But I have been able to take charge of my life and move on as an independent person. Not that I don't enjoy being around Romulus, the mission taught me to be more self sufficient, but this situation has forced me to be so.
Though, in the past four months, I have been privileged to meet and know someone who has become one of my best friends, if not my best friend. I have been dating a wonderful guy and he makes me so happy. I still remember the first time we talked, and we just clicked. More so than with anyone I had ever clicked with. And as we got to know each other, the struggles that we faced, the little quirks we have, we realized how similar we were, and I began to fall in love with him. Over the past few months we have grown together as a couple and I can't imagine myself not with him. It may not seem like we've been together all that long, but we have grown in our commitment to each other, through our fights and arguments. I love him very much. :)
I will be graduating from the lauded BYU soon, and I can't wait to get out! I will have a freedom that I haven't felt in a long time. I will not always be afraid to be myself and to express myself. I will be able to hug my baby whenever I want. And for once, I will be free of the shackles that have held me so tightly for the past 23 years of my life.