I don't know if they put this flyer on every car or what, but there was a flyer that said something to the effect of asking why gay mormons were so willing to blow their own heads off. At first, I thought that it was an anti-gay thing, and sort of dismissed it. Then I looked at it more closely and realized that it was talking about how gays aren't accepted and how we feel ostracized and such. The flyer wasn't very well written and had grammatical errors (sorry if someone on here put it up...) which made me sad and I don't think it advanced our cause very much. But at least the fact of getting the voice heard was important. It was something that I never would do, but I'm glad that there are people that will do it.
But more importantly, it made me reflect on what happened about a year ago. One of my friends actually did commit suicide. I knew he had been depressed, but I didn't see it coming. I guess we never do. We never expect something like that to happen to one of our friends. But it made the whole situation real. I had a gay friend commit suicide. It changed my life. I had always contemplated doing it. But I always joked around that God must've knew something by making it difficult for me to swallow pills! But after seeing the effect of one life, why throw mine away. It gave me new perspective. And to my friend, I'm thankful for that. RIP.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
I've decided to restart my blog. My life had gone in a way where I didn't need this blog, but because of life's circumstances, I need it again. Funny how life does that to you. Just being able to get things off my chest will help as I go further in my transformation. I'm at a very different place than I was when I started my blog the first time. So this road that I am is very different than the one that I intended to be on before. But thus is life. If changes, and you must change along with it. Look forward to wonderful posts from me! :)